My name is Lauren and I'm going to be a mother of a beautiful baby boy soon; his name is baby Mikey. As exciting as all this may be, I can't help but feel very depressed and emotional. A little over a year ago, I gave birth to a rape baby and I put her up for adoption. It was a very hard choice, but it seemed right. It still hurts and I still miss her. I think it's making this pregnancy very, very hard on me.
Rent's late and bills seem like they come sooner and sooner than they are supposed to, so I know that Christmas like I'd like to have probably just won't happen this year. There will be no tree, light, wreaths, or presents. I just hope that things are looking better by next year so that I cn give a beautiful Christmas to my son.
Sorry for the long story but my wish for this Christmas is to get as many cards as I can to help keep my spirits up. Maybe something small in them. I don't think I'm too old to enjoy stickers and the like.
I hope everyone is having very, very happy holidays.